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I am expanding. My personal boundaries around love, acceptance of others and the willingness to change has also been expanding. About a year ago I started realizing that in order to be a true walker of this spiritual path that was congruent with what I believed was being asked of me by my creator, that I was going to have to change.
This included doing things that were uncomfortable for me. Seriously uncomfortable. There were some days that I must have chanted, "the Gods don't give us more than we can handle, we just may not agree on where the line is" 70 times a day! And in the same day, find myself thinking sometimes the ugliest things and realizing that I could not give myself permission to think that anymore.
The result? My heart started expanding. My capacity to love that which was before unlovable to my own eyes has started becoming valuable in and of itself. I remember the moment when I read a section out of my Dalai Lama book where he frankly stated that we were addicted to beauty and only wanted to love beautiful things or beautiful people and specifically that he stated that we devalued things that weren't beautiful. It felt like he was talking to me. Lately in that vein, I have noticed that our super models are really iconic on this. They are unhealthy and ragged bones in skin, being run by our consumer culture addiction to beauty and our connecting beauty to a value statement.
I saw a guy in Home Depot that had a ruddy face and knotty hair who was selling air conditioners and for the first time as I walked by I thought, what a beautiful man and I smiled at him unconditionally from a deep part in my heart. I shocked the hell outta myself!
All of this is an example of how I am working to remove my own prejudices that come forward, especially against myself. This transition been hard, and this is just one area! Let's not get onto how I feel about people who are arrogant, unkind or otherwise lacking. (especially in my own opinion)
Treating and feeling equanimity towards people, religions, ideologies and whatnot is something that I strive to uphold. Each time I see someone, I go back into my spirit and find the place that sees them the way that I think God sees them: As Divinity expressing Itself. My hope is that someday, my own spirit won't even remember what it was like to feel the other way.
This included doing things that were uncomfortable for me. Seriously uncomfortable. There were some days that I must have chanted, "the Gods don't give us more than we can handle, we just may not agree on where the line is" 70 times a day! And in the same day, find myself thinking sometimes the ugliest things and realizing that I could not give myself permission to think that anymore.
The result? My heart started expanding. My capacity to love that which was before unlovable to my own eyes has started becoming valuable in and of itself. I remember the moment when I read a section out of my Dalai Lama book where he frankly stated that we were addicted to beauty and only wanted to love beautiful things or beautiful people and specifically that he stated that we devalued things that weren't beautiful. It felt like he was talking to me. Lately in that vein, I have noticed that our super models are really iconic on this. They are unhealthy and ragged bones in skin, being run by our consumer culture addiction to beauty and our connecting beauty to a value statement.
I saw a guy in Home Depot that had a ruddy face and knotty hair who was selling air conditioners and for the first time as I walked by I thought, what a beautiful man and I smiled at him unconditionally from a deep part in my heart. I shocked the hell outta myself!
All of this is an example of how I am working to remove my own prejudices that come forward, especially against myself. This transition been hard, and this is just one area! Let's not get onto how I feel about people who are arrogant, unkind or otherwise lacking. (especially in my own opinion)
Treating and feeling equanimity towards people, religions, ideologies and whatnot is something that I strive to uphold. Each time I see someone, I go back into my spirit and find the place that sees them the way that I think God sees them: As Divinity expressing Itself. My hope is that someday, my own spirit won't even remember what it was like to feel the other way.
