garden_pixie | 2 dreams - both important (Reply)

I had a dream that a professor like character was telling me that Mohammad was an evil man. That he deserved anything he got.
He deserved to be destroyed. He said to me that he KNEW this. In a deeply emotional outburst I told him that this was frankly not true and I knew that he didn't know because he hadn't read any of the biographies otherwise he would have a different opinion.

I left feeling like I couldn't go back to school, I started missing classes and was stressed about it. This felt like the same feeling like when I was in high school and the stuff with my Dad/Abuse/Prision.

Then I went to visit my friends, they were in this house just screwing around getting stoned or just gabbing.
I was apalled that they didn't see how distressed I was.

Then I was in circle sitting next to Khadim. We were there doing our practice and working on something personal like we do. A guy who looks like a combo of 2 friends of mine (who are know it alls) was like, "here is how I do this practice". I knew what he was going to do, he was going to cast circle and call quarters, but thought he was going to use the shield of the magus. Khadim was like, "ok". I was horrified at what was getting ready to happen. It felt like he was just showing off. He *slinked* over physically and started doing the LBRP. He called the elements etc, and the mighty ones.

I felt a bolt of energy go through my body. Khadim saw this. Then we were in this circle and other people were like, "awesome job man!" and then another guy walked across and handed the circle caller a flyer handout with tarot meanings. He was like "here, here's a handout one of my students made." I felt like we were at a Con or just a social circle.

I looked at the circle caller and said, "you can't just cast the circle and wander off, you have to be present with it and hold this. This is a very real container". He got grouchy and told me he knew what he was doing. Khadim started getting sick and I said, You have to take this circle down. He did it but didn't banish ANYTHING. I went over to her and she hugged me strongly and said, you are my ilk. I said, I had him take the circle down but he didn't banish anything. I said, do you want to purify the space. She said yes. I said would you like me to grab some sage? Khadim grabbed a piece of the rubble from the collapse of the circle and said, "We can purify it with this."